son-in-law

Chapter 246 The Road to Home (4)

Chapter 246 The Way Home (Part [-])

It's about things from my childhood.

"...At that time, my mother didn't like me very much, because I was a girl." Looking at the sky, Su Tan'er said softly after laughing, "She has always hoped...to give birth to Daddy in the future... I'm a boy, and my father thinks the same way, but at least my father is warm to me. He said that I am smart, and I will definitely be smarter if I have a younger brother in the future. My father always looks at my future brother from me, and my mother even looks at me. I don’t even want to see it. At that time, I used to cling to my mother, but my mother ignored me. Sometimes I did something wrong and annoyed her. She didn’t beat me, but just waved for the nanny to take me away. Mr. This is the biggest contempt in the world... Later I knew that my mother always wanted a younger brother, and at first I even hated my younger brother a little, I didn't understand the difference between a girl..."

The wild flowers on the hillside were dotted, and Su Tan'er put her hands on her belly, watching the white clouds drift away in the evening.Ning Yi originally closed his eyes and smiled, but now he opened his eyes: "It's okay, they don't like us, and we don't like her either."

"Heh, I don't need to like my mother, but my husband-in-law can't, otherwise I will be poked in the back, saying that my son-in-law is not filial."

Ning Yi turned his head, looked at her for a while, and said solemnly: "They can't scold me."

"Pfft..." Su Tan'er couldn't help covering her mouth, and after a while, she just looked at the sky and spoke again.

"I'm quite strange among girls. After studying some books, I didn't think it's human nature like those ladies, but I felt that my father and mother were not nice to me, and it was not fair at all. I was there Growing up with the nanny in the big house, on the one hand, he felt that he wanted to be a boy that his father and mother would regret, and that he wanted to take over the family business; Learn all the things you have learned well, or you will prove that you actually envy those boys, so you will lose?"

Ning Yi stretched out his hand to take away a grass stalk stuck to the end for her, Su Tan'er's voice was leisurely: "Growing up in that kind of family, the nanny was kind to me when I was young, and always said, we are a big family, and I am everyone." Everyone envies me as a girl. But when I became sensible, I realized that there is nothing to envy. My father doesn't like me, and neither does my mother. If I live in a small family, I don't have such troubles. In fact, I also understand. If it wasn't for the fact that the family was too big, and if there was an older brother above me, my father and mother would not be under so much pressure, and I wouldn't be left out. I... I didn't like my father and mother during those times, and later found out that I have also become the same person as them, that family... has no human touch..."

"I... a concubine, I am not a lady of every family. I just learned from others, but I am not like it. I... like poetry, but I can't write well, and I don't know how to read it, so I tell myself, then There are too many things to learn and business, and I don’t have time at all... Actually, I don’t like poetry at all, I just like the feeling of being sought after by others... Sometimes when I think about this, when I see my father The way mother looks like, she just thinks, don't have children in the future, if she gives birth to a child and can't raise it well, she will be like me, and blame me as a mother, what can I do..."

"The standard is too high, no one will just like poetry...you will be a good mother." Ning Yi interjected.

Su Tan'er shook her head and smiled: "When I was 45 years old, I didn't want to get married, so I kept procrastinating and procrastinating, and then I chose a husband when I really couldn't procrastinate."

She tilted her head and looked at Ning Yi who was lying next to her: "But it wasn't true at that time. I asked Xiaochan to take care of my husband. She ran away on the day of getting married and came back several days later. Although I lived together in the back Son, I don't respect my husband too much..."

"Isn't it already good?"

Su Tan'er shook her head on the grass, her expression became calm, she just smiled naturally: "No..." When she said this, her voice choked up slightly, "It's not very good, it's just... ...The concubine is pretending, pretending to be a lady of everyone, pretending to be very knowledgeable, just like pretending to like poetry. The concubine...is just thinking about herself, thinking about stabilizing her husband, so that this family... It looks like a home, and it is enough not to be poked in the back by others, I have never thought of being a husband..."

"Women are really troublesome..."

"...But now I think about it."

The voices of the two sounded together, Ning Yi muttered boredly, and Su Tan'er whispered slightly choked.After finishing speaking, he couldn't help but chuckled because of the words. Ning Yi closed his eyes and turned his palm across, his fingers almost hit Su Tan'er's cheek. Su Tan'er tilted his head, closed his eyes slightly, and leaned his cheek against the On his hand, he felt the touch of his fingers.

The two of them have always been decisive people, and they don't like to be hypocritical. When they are together, of course there are such romantic conversations as Xiaolou Night Talk in this era.But in fact, Su Tan'er has a sophisticated temperament, and in the heart-to-heart conversation above the small building, she also talked as naturally as possible, and there were not many sweet words.Later, the Su family encountered a catastrophe, and the relationship between the two developed by leaps and bounds. When Su Tan'er burned the building and consummated the house, although there were a few sweet words occasionally, they were basically between the beds.

It's rare for Su Tan'er's youngest daughter to be coquettish, and they are both powerful people, even if they are really flirting, they are all tacit understanding.It's just that in the past two days, after learning of her pregnancy and Ning Yi's injury, although she silently stayed by Ning Yi's side and didn't talk nonsense, but at this time, she really opened her mouth to talk about these things that she thought she didn't need to care about. Stuff vented out.

"Now I know that my husband took everything that happened at that time into my heart, and I probably couldn't hide the twists and turns I thought about in my heart. A few nerds, can't think about things, can't deal with people, just think... as long as you can control Xianggong, a stupid scholar like Xianggong, how can he be a concubine's opponent..."

Ning Yi smiled: "Not now."

"My husband is open-minded, maybe I think that is also human nature. But now I think, if I can do it all over again, I must treat my husband well, I want to learn to be a real lady of everyone, I want Husband and son, I don’t want to marry my husband. Let others say that my husband married a hot old girl. It would be great if I married my husband when I was 14 or 15 years old. That way... that way... ...everything is different, the concubine will not drag my husband to Hangzhou willfully..."

Although Su Tan'er was a little choked up when she said the previous words, she was calm. It was only when she said the last sentence that she finally really cried. She clenched her fists with both hands and placed them by her side, trembling slightly, crying hard.This woman has always been arrogant. Although she is restrained under her gentle appearance, she has always been in the shopping malls, and her outlook on life is almost as sharp as a knife like Ning Yi. Once something happens, she only seeks a solution first, and regrets it emotions, at best can only be called induction or introspection.But at this moment, knowing that the journey was difficult and that her husband's injuries were likely to be implicated by the long journey, she actually felt guilty for such emotions.

Ning Yi sighed, moved and moved, leaning towards his wife, Su Tan'er grabbed his clothes, gritted his teeth and cried.

"We will go back, there is still a chance." Ning Yi said.

Su Tan'er was already crying: "Now I want to have a child for my husband, I want my husband to teach my son, I don't want to be brave anymore, I don't want to do business anymore, I don't want myself anymore... But now I think again, if now ... It would be fine if I didn’t have this child, even if I don’t have it now, I’ll be fine if I have it in the future. I saw my husband doing those things these days, and I was desperately trying to figure out how to get out. I know that my husband is under the weight of responsibility, even if he doesn’t have children. , but I'm really scared... The doctor said that Xianggong's injury needs to be relieved, he needs to rest, and then rely on his own body to survive. Xianggong, you have worked so hard to escape, how can your body survive... I have some advice , but I know I can't persuade you..."

She cried a lot by Ning Yi's side and suppressed it a lot, so her body trembled a lot: "In the past two days, Xianggong has been asking those people about things and planning those things. I am by Xianggong's side... I am holding back I don’t speak, there are many people in my heart telling me that it’s useless to say it, it’s useless to say it, it’s just to make you more worried, and you can’t make you worry about doing things while worrying about me. But I thought, if I’m like those Ordinary women are fine, just cry and yell that you are not allowed to do these things, and then don't worry about anything..."

Ning Yi patted her on the shoulder: "You also know that it's useless..."

"When I can't bear it..." Su Tan'er sniffed, "When I couldn't bear it, I went to hide in the tent, sat for a while, and couldn't help myself from crying. Chan'er and the others all cried It's been several times, and they want to come over to persuade you, but I stop them. I don't want you to have to work hard to talk to them, and to persuade them, I don't want to say useless things to you, and I don't want to have the physical strength to talk You consume... I didn't want to tell you this..."

After she finished speaking, she cried in a low voice, but it was better than before.Ning Yi waited for a while and said, "I will get better."

Su Tan'er touched his tears, but the tears were still falling. He leaned on his chest, nodded and said: "You must get better, if you don't get better, I will never meet such a husband, and I don't want the child anymore. I don’t want my family anymore... I was not a good mother in the first place, and I have done things that ruined other people’s homes... Mrs., please remember, I have your child in my stomach, you are very tired now. You can't call yourself tired, you have to get through it. But it doesn't matter if you can't make it through, we'll go down and find you..."

She stared at Ning Yi with her eyes open, her cherry lips tightly pursed on her gentle face.She roams the mall as a woman, and she has always had a soft and silent style, because she has a delicate appearance, and she is only a girl in her early twenties, unlike those decisive businessmen on the sofa, but at this time, only that In the big eyes that have been crying, there is a persistent aura that has been cultivated in the mall for a long time but has been restrained, mixed with that gentle face, so that it only sends a more heartwarming message to the person in front of him: This is your woman .

Ning Yi smiled: "Don't underestimate your husband, no matter what, I will survive. This child is destined for you."

Su Tan'er touched her lower abdomen, and then leaned towards Ning Yi. She grabbed Ning Yi's skirt with the other hand, closed her eyes, and seemed to be muttering something in her mouth, as if she was praying for something, but the mountain wind blew over , I can't hear the specific words.

Clouds swirled in the sky, and the setting sun burned all over the sky and mountains. As night fell, in the camp of the fugitives, the army began to operate busily.The next day they broke camp again, and the pursuers in the rear were actually not too far away. When the day approached noon, they began to get a message from the refugees alone. Right in front of them, the largest fleeing team , the internal strife started...

(End of this chapter)